all your dreams are gone

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 08:26:35 GMT

dont just stand up for what you believe is wrong. repel it from your life entirely. then you will know happiness.

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 20:08:59 GMT

sometimes i really wonder what the effin point is.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 07:06:56 GMT

What Would You do if...
I cried: CRY
I said I liked you: SAY I LOVE YOU
I kissed you: KISS BACK
I was hospitalized: SIT AT YOUR BEDSIDE
I got in a fight and you were there: BEAT SOME ASS
I got dumped: BEAT SOME ASS
I pissed you off: GET OVER IT

Would You...
Be my friend: DUH
Tell me the truth no matter what: DUH
Lie to make me feel better: SOMETIMES
Keep a secret if I told you one: OF COURSE
Loan me some cash: IF I HAD SOME
Hold my hand: ALREADY HAVE
Take a bullet for me: YOUR ONE OF THE FEW
Keep in touch: ALWAYS
Love me: I DO
makeout with me: BEEN THERE
hold me in times of need: FOREVER

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 06:54:33 GMT

i dont want to play anymore.

im tired.

my heart hurts.

im so glad to have a computer again.

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 00:40:53 GMT

woah. its been a long time...
over two years since my last entry. aww. my journal.

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 00:03:54 GMT

i miss my friends. a lot. i want to leave arizona.

utah is so awesome, i went and visited emily. i dont know if i could live away from my family though.

Wed, 17 Jul 2002 07:13:05 GMT

i love matty. im soooooo glad that were hanging out again.

i miss everyone...
ollie,emily,crystal,kayla

kill me

4-2-0 !

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 00:17:38 GMT

prom. too much anxiety for a school dance.

word on the street.. tonight.. the biggest party ever.
whos not going to be there?
ha

well chris is ready.
yeah.

Sun, 24 Feb 2002 18:09:04 GMT

i was thinking about changing my pic but thats exactly what im talking about...
:(

Sun, 24 Feb 2002 17:59:19 GMT

3 months until i escape.
not to much longer.

why is it a requirement to be depressed..

Sun, 24 Feb 2002 17:57:10 GMT

i miss my old life. it seems like no matter where i am or who i hang out with, about every year my life changes. and i like it but in some ways i dont. i miss people that i used to hang out with. theat just blow me off now. i guess im the only one that thinks about it,
you think that your such good friends with someone then when they leave you realize what the freindship really was.
i once heard a poem at a work seminar (at 9 on a saturday the morning that i had to wake up and go to) i cant remember the whole thing but it said something like... freinds come into your life to make a certain impact and then when their job is done they leave. only a few will be your freinds forever.
so, i get that. but its still effin sad.

let me lie

Mon, 28 Jan 2002 04:56:10 GMT

im fine.

Mon, 28 Jan 2002 04:53:00 GMT

hang on
hang on
it gets better
when
am i chasing something that doesnt want to be caught
stop
wait
im trying
hang on
hang on
how long
im so tired
when will it come
i hate standing in line
i want to be next
now
im moving but i cant feel it
am i shaking
am i here
dont wake me up
im so tired
hang on

i just cant.

Mon, 28 Jan 2002 04:48:33 GMT

i hate my journal.
why wont someone show me how to work things on here.
movie=depression.

rub it in crystal.

work>school>work>school..
dang my life if non stop fun.

Tue, 22 Jan 2002 05:39:05 GMT

i hate cold weather.
i love and miss my friends.

Wed, 26 Dec 2001 05:02:03 GMT

boys are really pathetic.

dont go see the movie ali. its horrid.

im in a downward spiral.

Fri, 21 Dec 2001 00:44:17 GMT

i hate knowing the truth about life.
and finding out who your real friends are. it sucks when you think someone is something that theyre not.

then it like when you do know who your real friends are, you cant hang on to them.

i dont know. it makes sense in my head.

Fri, 21 Dec 2001 00:41:56 GMT

happy 18th emily!

i miss you, you too crystal. come back asap.

Fri, 21 Dec 2001 00:40:54 GMT

i should stop drinking so much.

i love the fact that kaylas here. i hope i can convince her to move back. it would do her good.

my new job is rad. i hope its as fun as expected.
last day at mervyns tomarrow.
god get me through it.

people really dont grow up, out of highschool

Tue, 11 Dec 2001 00:40:25 GMT

do you think that this weekend could have got any crazier.

some guys always have to fight about everything. i hate that. it doesnt prove anything to anyone. friday night was the perfect example of that.. second to saturday.

i hate dumb people. and people that cant handle their alcohol. that is the worst. if youre going to drink than know how. and how much you can take.
retard.

i also hate guys that think constantly with the head downstairs. it like, do you have a brain. erg.

by the way.
i love dating.

Thu, 29 Nov 2001 00:42:36 GMT

i have never picked up a hitchicker. not that i remember, anyway. until today.
i guess he wasnt technically hitchicking. but he was walking.
me. chris.
navy drunk man walking.
in my car.
smelled like beer.
told stories.
bonded with chris on the armed forces.
graduated from greenway in '87.
wow.
he hugged me.

what the heck do i want?

Fri, 09 Nov 2001 00:43:47 GMT

ollie must hate me.. "i hate people that dont know what they want."-ollie

i am so completely confused with everything in my life right now.

monsters inc. was absolutely amazing.

i cleaned my car today.. whoa. whoa.
its so clean. now im going through one of those, im not going to drink, eat, smoke or anything in my car. that will end in like two seconds.

why is everyone so set in their ideas and lifestyle except me? all i can do is dream about what i want. and who i want to be. its my favorite past time.

i keep getting headaches. its so ridiculous.

why do i hate my life...

Sat, 03 Nov 2001 22:09:20 GMT

my english teacher told me that i have gotten used to being unhappy and that it works for me. hmmm.

i need to cheer up and stop hating my life because i hate my job. i am so lame.

new hair cut. whoa.

mosters inc. is star wars relived. for real.
the line last night was phenomenal.

6 months till graduation. countin the days.

Sat, 13 Oct 2001 19:35:17 GMT

dood. why does he have to be so nice? that makes it really hard to get mad at him.

i should have gone back over to kate's last night. oh well.

Sat, 13 Oct 2001 19:31:19 GMT

i remember when i was a kid and used to go door to door trying to sell stuff, it was humiliating.
(some kids just came over.. so i was flashing back.)

sometimes boyfriend just makes me so angry.
example, last night. err.
i dont even want to talk to him today. i am actually still debating it.
but he really didnt do anything. i guess im just lame, i dont know. whatever. boys smell.

i was surprised at how good wes's band was. i had heard them at the house practicing. but they were a lot better on stage.

ollie needs to call me.